Hearing him scream again I finally reached the locker room doors, slamming into them, my hand went straight through the one panel and when it swung open I went with it, crashing into the wall, my hand stuck up to the elbow in the glass and against the door.
I looked around the room where everyone else was standing looking at me in shock. And then I saw him... standing in front of the benches, looking scared. Like a rabbit... so small and innocent, terrified. That fear was beautiful... but only if I was causing it. Only if I was hurting him... frightening him.
Seeing that kind of fear in him usually instilled excitement within me... but like I said, only if I was causing it. Right now? There was only a burning rage, deep inside me, spreading like wildfire. I didn't want him to get hurt.
He couldn't get hurt.
The Ax... I needed to get to the ax... he was going to kill him... kill everyone. I didn't really care so much for everyone else, but something about Luke told me that he did care.
So I guess that meant I did too.
"Fucking hell!" I cursed trying to rip my arm free from the glass... but it was stuck at my elbow and I knew it would rip all of my veins open if I pulled it out.
I remembered Beatrice... the way she looked at me, late at night. And then I remembered his eyes... the same as hers. Luke... Beatrice... and infinite galaxy of blue swirling light in those eyes. The world itself would bow in shame before that beautifully wretched color.
I heard growling and saw Peter come flying into the room... his mouth was foaming and his eyes blood red. The place where I had burned him was severely injured and he was moaning and groaning. He made terrible sounds and it reminded me of the insane asylum, the way people acted... the darkeness, the insanity within their eyes.
He was focusing on the other people in the room, trying to see who he was going to go for next. He couldn't find me... so he setlled for the closest person in the room.
Luke.
Something hot flashed inside of me... as I watched him wildly swing the long knife through the air, flinging himself at the smaller, younger boy. The boy that was so feeble, fragile, and frail. My insides felt like they were burning... it was happening again. And then something violent tugged on my heart... and a pounding in my head that nearly had be blacking out.
He couldn't die... I wouldn't let him.
I closed my eyes, inhaling through my nose. Yanking brutally on my arm as I felt it rip open... all the veins and the skin, tearing, bleeding, dark red, almost black drops flying against the wall and down onto the floor as I ran... ran so hard, my eyes feeling like they were on Fire... and I knew they had changed... in some way... they had changed.
They felt... Black... hollow.
If I could just... just push him out of harm's way then everything would be okay... everything would be okay.
I felt my blood drenched arm reach him... shoving him to the side hard, so he fell parallel next to me on the ground.
And I screamed... I screamed as I felt the knife slice through me... into my abdomen... and it wasn't like butter, it didn't go in easy. It was rusted and jagged and it was pushed... pushed hard into me, violently. The metal twisting and sawing and ripping.
I gasped in loudly, not taking in air, but a memory.
'He looked so pathetic... standing there, begging me not to leave him. He... who was so codependent on me that the very thought of me going away just killed him.
"Please! Please! Star... Don't go... Don't!"
"Shut up... can't you hear yourself? Can't you hear how ridiculous you sound? Acting like a four-year-old, begging his mommy not to leave... grow up." I said harshly, turning my hand on the door knob.
"But... but don't you love me? Don't you care?"
I stopped, my hand gripping the cool metal before saying coldly, "No... I actually don't feel anything at all."
And then I was gone.'
I was back and blood was flowing rapidly down my body... the knife still embedded deep inside of me as my eyes turned back to blue, and became unfocused.
I realized in that one moment... that I did care... I cared about something... about him.
I cared.
I looked down to the boy to the right of me... laying on the floor covered in blood... and I just looked at him, seeing that my life was going to change forever after today... I just knew. I took in a shallow gasping breath, he was alive... I had saved him, and that meant... that meant that everything was going to be okay.
More blood gushed out, seeping and leaving my body... my lifestream draining from me like the color from the sky at the end of the sunset.
And even as I lay there on the ground... bleeding to death, I knew that everything was going to be okay... everything was okay. Because he was alive.
I gasped again before the knife was ripped violently from me, and I fell to the side...
Everything was so blurry.
I looked around the room where everyone else was standing looking at me in shock. And then I saw him... standing in front of the benches, looking scared. Like a rabbit... so small and innocent, terrified. That fear was beautiful... but only if I was causing it. Only if I was hurting him... frightening him.
Seeing that kind of fear in him usually instilled excitement within me... but like I said, only if I was causing it. Right now? There was only a burning rage, deep inside me, spreading like wildfire. I didn't want him to get hurt.
He couldn't get hurt.
The Ax... I needed to get to the ax... he was going to kill him... kill everyone. I didn't really care so much for everyone else, but something about Luke told me that he did care.
So I guess that meant I did too.
"Fucking hell!" I cursed trying to rip my arm free from the glass... but it was stuck at my elbow and I knew it would rip all of my veins open if I pulled it out.
I remembered Beatrice... the way she looked at me, late at night. And then I remembered his eyes... the same as hers. Luke... Beatrice... and infinite galaxy of blue swirling light in those eyes. The world itself would bow in shame before that beautifully wretched color.
I heard growling and saw Peter come flying into the room... his mouth was foaming and his eyes blood red. The place where I had burned him was severely injured and he was moaning and groaning. He made terrible sounds and it reminded me of the insane asylum, the way people acted... the darkeness, the insanity within their eyes.
He was focusing on the other people in the room, trying to see who he was going to go for next. He couldn't find me... so he setlled for the closest person in the room.
Luke.
Something hot flashed inside of me... as I watched him wildly swing the long knife through the air, flinging himself at the smaller, younger boy. The boy that was so feeble, fragile, and frail. My insides felt like they were burning... it was happening again. And then something violent tugged on my heart... and a pounding in my head that nearly had be blacking out.
He couldn't die... I wouldn't let him.
I closed my eyes, inhaling through my nose. Yanking brutally on my arm as I felt it rip open... all the veins and the skin, tearing, bleeding, dark red, almost black drops flying against the wall and down onto the floor as I ran... ran so hard, my eyes feeling like they were on Fire... and I knew they had changed... in some way... they had changed.
They felt... Black... hollow.
If I could just... just push him out of harm's way then everything would be okay... everything would be okay.
I felt my blood drenched arm reach him... shoving him to the side hard, so he fell parallel next to me on the ground.
And I screamed... I screamed as I felt the knife slice through me... into my abdomen... and it wasn't like butter, it didn't go in easy. It was rusted and jagged and it was pushed... pushed hard into me, violently. The metal twisting and sawing and ripping.
I gasped in loudly, not taking in air, but a memory.
'He looked so pathetic... standing there, begging me not to leave him. He... who was so codependent on me that the very thought of me going away just killed him.
"Please! Please! Star... Don't go... Don't!"
"Shut up... can't you hear yourself? Can't you hear how ridiculous you sound? Acting like a four-year-old, begging his mommy not to leave... grow up." I said harshly, turning my hand on the door knob.
"But... but don't you love me? Don't you care?"
I stopped, my hand gripping the cool metal before saying coldly, "No... I actually don't feel anything at all."
And then I was gone.'
I was back and blood was flowing rapidly down my body... the knife still embedded deep inside of me as my eyes turned back to blue, and became unfocused.
I realized in that one moment... that I did care... I cared about something... about him.
I cared.
I looked down to the boy to the right of me... laying on the floor covered in blood... and I just looked at him, seeing that my life was going to change forever after today... I just knew. I took in a shallow gasping breath, he was alive... I had saved him, and that meant... that meant that everything was going to be okay.
More blood gushed out, seeping and leaving my body... my lifestream draining from me like the color from the sky at the end of the sunset.
And even as I lay there on the ground... bleeding to death, I knew that everything was going to be okay... everything was okay. Because he was alive.
I gasped again before the knife was ripped violently from me, and I fell to the side...
Everything was so blurry.